Drunken Meditation

So, now that I’ve had a few margaritas and am now working on a glass of wine, I feel inspired to talk about my favorite subject – ME! LOML and I go through this on margarita Fridays quite often (I’m sure he tires of it).
I begin to worry about what to do with my life, my artwork, my passion for crafting. He says I should just JUMP and start listing items. However, I have a serious case of self-doubt and fear of failure. I’m so afraid of making that jump and failing miserably. At the same time, I realize that if I never make that jump, I’ll never know what could have been. It’s such a catch 22 and totally not my style (to not try something). I think I just like to get compliments on my jewelry and hear how I should start selling it. It’s such a great confidence boost. To actually answer, “Yes, I TRY to sell it,” and know it’s not selling seems so scary, so sketchy, so. . . . I don’t know

But, I don’t know. I keep putting it off. I just go with the flow, and I despise the FLOW. I want to stick out, make a statement, and be the person I know I am. I want to be the person I see reflected in the eyes of those who know me best.

I’m almost there. I think! Keep believing in me and giving me the boost of confidence and I’ll make it someday. I just had to get that out. THANKS!!

Weekend Wishes

I know it's bad taste to "drink and blog," but look out world, welcome to me.

I just want to thank those few, very few, faithfuls that who are actually visiting the blog on a fairly regular basis. I am really enjoying this creative output and will continue to post whether anyone reads me or not. [but please keep on reading - I'm loving the attention]

I've already had a great night tonight by simply cooking dinner for the LOML* and then hanging out with our local best friend married couple. I have VERY few plans for the weekend. One of my nieces has asked me to come over, I want to go to some yard sales, and I have dinner plans on Sunday. Other than that, my weekend is O.P.E.N!! It's so exciting. No other plans taking up or ruining the whole weekend. I've got some other things I am hoping to get done, but will not absolutely PLAN on doing. Ahhh, the luxury of no plans.

Well, before I regret saying any of this, I'm going to post. I hope everyone has a fabulous un-planned weekend as well.

Cheers!! (as I hold up my tasty beer to the monitor)